Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Reinforced relationships

Does it happen to all? when confronted with grief and sadness, family suddenly becomes a closer unit.

Over the years, i see it happening again and again and marvel the fact that people with contradicting opinions about everything in life, the one's who cannot stand each other, suddenly are united for the same cause. The differences magically seem to dissolve and both sides start seeing things with a lot more clarity and practicality.

The last two weeks have been so. There is still no respite, no answers, but there are a lot more conversations, assurances and an unbelievable amount of collective effort and prayers around us. We are hoping they will translate into goodwill and bring upon us a miracle.

But, in the meanwhile, it has made some of us bury our demons and skeletons from the cupboard- and ensure they do not return, ever.

If not for anything else, this phase has reinforced a lot of relationships that were otherwise dormant in the family. Now we wait for the miracle that all of us have been praying for.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Heartbreak

It has been ages since i blogged. Blame that on...myself.


It is always, later. Except that later meant- when i am done with all other priorities- more like, forever. I promised myself that i will resume blogging once back from the vacation. But then, i am queen of procastrination. And just when i have time to blog, there have been some developments at homefront. Some testing times for the family.
The vacation story will have to wait a bit longer.

God has a way of subtly telling us that life isn't all ha ha he he....he gives you pleasure on one hand, and agony on the other. Take both and live with it.

Someone close to me, someone i am very fond of, is going through a crisis that is life altering , hers and everyone around hers. On one hand, she has been gifted with a precious gift, and on the other, she sees her life balanced by a thread. To her, her life as she knows has altered, the coming months will define her life for the rest of years to live.

At times like this, when nothing is under our control, what does one do?
Accentuate the happiness and mask the grief?
Tone down the happiness and let the grief tide over?
Being party to both her happiness and sorrow,the lines between them blur at times.

At times, my thoughts go astray...tomorrow may be my turn.
Will i stay strong and make my destiny or will i give in and let my fate take over like an ivy?

What do i advice her?
To pray and expect a miracle?
To be strong enough to know that a miracle may not happen?
To be prepared for whatever life brings her?

I am here, miles away from her, praying for a miracle, hoping she has the strength to know a miracle may not happen, and praying that no one goes through what she is experiencing now.

To S: Always the fighter, always the one who benchmarked your life against someone better. The one who pushed against all the barriers. You are braver than you think.

Things will get better. I just know. You deserve it.

Love,

A


Monday, November 2, 2009

Here here...look this way.

Just a note to let you all know...


Halloween is past...Am back from the dead.
Happy after a holiday, sad that it ended.

And hoping to read posts from all my favourite bloggers and maybe post something of my own too.

Love all.