Justifying decisions

Now that her departure has been decided and plans made,

i keep losing sleep over what we will do in the coming days/months

On plan it all sounds very simple...wake up, clockwork. Drop kid at daycare, pick him up in the evening, clockwork, and crash.

That clockwork part, is scaring the shit out of me. With 2 hrs of one way travel everyday, i am wondering if it is a sensible idea at all!

But then, this had to happen, someday or other.

----Another year and V will be six. I'd rather has starts now when he still has friends around at the same place...

----I could be selfish and keep her for another 5 years, health not mattering. But i would have to live with that thought everyday.

----What if she falls ill? I doubt her family / general public at home will take kindly to that fact..

---- I am pulling V from a very comfortable life and forcing him to spend his days with a couple of other kids- much like putting a day schooler into a boarding school.

---Maybe he will finally start eating lunch/ food without coercion, hoping peer pressure would work.

---He will learn to share his space with other kids and co exist. As of now, he is the undisputed king/ owner of all things in his vicinity. Perils of being a single child.

It was a decision waiting to happen and now is when it is happening.

Sometimes, i wonder who am i justifying all this to?

Maybe just myself.

Parenting lesson # 2785

Kids ask questions..One's that test your creativity , reasoning, and sanity.

Some wisdom gathered over the past year show that....

--These questions are most likely-very real, very basic and very uncomfortable at times.

--One realizes that the reply, what ever it may be- needs to be cleverly answered. Chances are, 99.99% of time, it will get told to visitors in great enthusiasm along with " Mama/ papa told me this"

-- The same questions can be asked to you repeatedly, under different circumstances- it is just a ploy devised by 2ft tall people to understand how stable his/ her parents are. You change one word in the reply-- and they will point it out to you.

--You never get brownie points for answering any question related to school based knowledge. The teacher is always right, and you are wrong-- come what may!!

-- Most of the philosophical questions in life arise, just when you have got into the bathroom and shut the door. They love hearing us reply " why can't i be 8 yrs old for my next birthday " being shouted over the noises of ablusion!

--Never, never answer a question absent mindedly. You will end up hearing a lot of " but you told me it's ok? "

And most important of all...

- Never tell them your age. Even.under.duress.

Half of our housing society, all our friends and relatives, a flight full of people to delhi , all school mates, all teachers , the guy who sells bread/ eggs, our vegetable seller, his doctor, the waiters at his favourite restaurant- everyone knows how old me and TB are!!!

That phrase " what was i thinking when i decided to have a kid?" sounds very logical at times like these....